Twisted Wonderland...

wow

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 19:15:12 GMT

Its been really long,
9 more weeks and I'm done with school
x.x

school

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 03:10:28 GMT

sooooooooooooooooo im going to be going to school finally
I'm gonna be going to robert morris for medical assisting,
and then probably go into nursing afterwards
so next time your at a hospital in like,
four years
watch out
i might be the one taking your blood
bwahaha
<3333333

hah

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 02:25:55 GMT

so I totally forgot my password,
so please forgive the lack of updates.
I just got off my lazy ass today to reset it.
So nothing much going on,
working like crazy and all that jazz.
whats new with you?
I'd love to hear.
Oh and I got a Sidekick 3.
The highlight of my past few weeks.
Oh and I'm an auntie!
My brothers wife had an adorable baby boy.
Weot Kris!

--that is all-- ^________^

....

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:02:25 GMT

Its been a while, I'll update sooooon I SWEAR!

ho ho ho

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 17:34:44 GMT

Merry Fucking Christmas.
Hope everyone has fun suffering away with their family like i will be doing in like, three hours.
Its almost new years,
time to get shitfaced
and ring in the new year.
Maybe this year will be better.
No more drama,
stress from work,
and the family will all get along.

Yea who am I kidding?
Its probably only gonna get worse.
Boo for pessimism.

hooookah

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 07:11:00 GMT

SO going to a hookah bar after being sick for like,
a week is NOT the best idea.
I feel like death,
my throat is killing me,
and my lungs are rebelling against me.
BUT
atleast we had a kick ass time!
TOTALLY going to coin that ACCENT!
Bwahahaha
NEXT WEEKS GOAL:!
DRIVE around taking pics of ridiculously decorated houses,
to show people in FL how we do up in IL!!!!
W00t w00t
Mucho love darling!
<333333333333333333
You know who this is for!

sick

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 19:35:31 GMT

SO I'm fucking sick!
This shit sucks monstrous ass!
I've got a fever and none of the meds I've been taking are helping.
I-MISS PERFECT ATTENDANCE- left work early.
I came in,
sat down,
and left an hour later.
WTF!
I HATE BEING SICK!
*DIES*

been a while

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 03:01:40 GMT

So its been quite a while,
I'm so fucking swamped at work.
Ugh I hate X-mas,
fucking waste of time if you ask me.
Nothing new going on really,
working and talkin to some old friends.
Its nice to talk about old times I guess,
and have you heard about the weather tonight?
FUCK SNOW!
GOD do I hate snow,
I'm seriously not gonna go to work if its crazy tomorrow.
"Yea I'm not comming in."
"Why?"
"Cuz its snowing."
I'm sure that would go over well. ugh.

IF...

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 04:42:28 GMT

If theres even a way to describe how i feel right now,
enraged would probably come the closest.
If you dont already know,
my brother and I were in a HUGE fight.
The reasons why we were fighting isnt relevant,
but i was stupid enough to let my mom and step-asshole turn me against my bro.
ALL without even realizing they were doing it,
because its been SO long since my mom has attempted anything like that.
I had figured she would quit while she was ahead,
and just come to grasps with the fact I value my bros opinion over hers.
So over these past three weeks,
my step-asshole has been kissing my ass.
At first I thought nothing of it,
then i figured that he was just tryin to be nice.
Fast forward to last night,
at my aunt Ola's house.
I had fallen asleep,
and was awoken by people yelling.
So I stumble into the kitchen,
to see my brother and step-asshole (who is completey wasted) getting into it.
And at one point,
my step-asshole says that my brother and I are nothing.
That we have no significant value to anyone.
Meanwhile, my mom is standing next to him,
NOT SAYING A FUCKING WORD!
I think that out of everything,
that hurt the worst.
So my brother, who kept his cool, tells him to butt the fuck out of ours issues.
Whats between him and me,
has NOTHING nor will it EVER have anything to do with step-asshole.
Meanwhile, I have the most disguested look on my face,
directed only at my mother,
who doesnt have the balls to say anything.
She didnt even have to side with my brother and me,
but her silence is still cutting through me.
I was on the verge of flipping out,
but my aunt ushered me outside.
Upon which my brother also went outside,
and we hadnt even spoken a word to each other the whole night.
Then out comes step-asshole,
and I'm left to choose who to stand next to.
So I make the obvious choice,
and side with me brother.
Becaues no MATTER how many fights we get into,
blood is thicker than the vodka step-asshole drinks.
But the whole time,
Kazek (step-asshole) had assumed that I would side with him,
just becaues he made me tea twice,
and didnt argue with me.
Do I seem like someone who can be bought over that easily?
Seriously now,
he actually thought that I would sell out my brother,
because we got into a fight.
What a fucking douche bag.
I love my brother to pieces,
no matter HOW many fights we get into,
he will ALWAYS be there for me.
Anyone know where I can buy a casket,
to bury my emotions for my mother and step-asshole?

sigh

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:05:08 GMT

ts been a long time since i updated any journals,
lifes been pretty boring really.
I just work all the fucking time,
and finally get to have some fun tonight!
WOOO hookah bar here i come!!!
time to just mellow out,
and relax.
thats the goal of the night,
oh and look recockulously good while doing it.
Joe wants back in on my life,
and I dont knwo if I wanna give him a second chance.
Becaues why give somenoe the key,
to fuck you over...agian

so

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:31:31 GMT

Nothing much has happened in a long time,
I'm working a totally fucked up scheduale being the ONLY major change!!!
Why havent we gone to dennys yet??
where the hell is Laise!?
Why is it already dark outside and its only like 730!!!
Winters coming,
wow its been a year.
Damn, I'm almost like halfway to forty!
OMGZ!
I need to revamp some things,
starting with my job.
then move onto friends,
and filter things into acquaintances.
Yea, thats a plan!

WTF

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 19:45:32 GMT

Seriously if its like litterally possible to be accident prone,
I thkn I'm a good case.
I managed to fucking fuck my ankle up in the SAME fucking place in the driveway,
as I did last year.
LUCKiLY it wasnt as bad as last year,
hence me not going to hte emergency room.
but it fucking hurts like HELL.
It feels like all the bones in my leg are grinding together,
and that I'm about to fucking colapse in pain.
Fucking thank GOD tis my left ankle,
so that I can still drive to work.
GOD arent my priorities in order?!

ding din ding

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 19:26:55 GMT

So I am now a proud owner of a blue hookah named Winona.
And While spacing out and looking at her,
I realized that I havent written a poem or short story in FOREVER!
Its like i've lost all inspiration or sometihng,
I tihkn I'm going to try and write someting at work tonight.
I just need a topic.
Hmmmmm theres always my everly popular topic of death,
but I dunno.
UGH being creative is such a pain in the ass.

sooo

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 08:11:07 GMT

The movie notebook is like, a total tear jerker. I've been crying for like 15 miinuntes, and the movie ended 30min ago. Its like anything I look at something, I think about too intentlly, and I start to cry. MAN, I'm like staring at my Pookie necklace and BALLINg my fucking eyes out. why does everything always have to fall to pieces? WHY am I always fucking helpless when it comes to fixing things? Why the fucking does nothing good ever last>? Serioulsy, I'm so tired of all the things I love falling through my fingertips. Its like the more I care about something, the greater the chances of it disappearing are. I need some sleep. MAybe things will be cleared in the morning, tho somehow I doubt it. I need a new beginning, maybe I should just move away from this place.

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:44:30 GMT

So today was a very VERY interesting day. My supervisor was interfering in YET ANOTHER FUCKING CONVERSATION that does NOT INVOLVE HER IN THE LEAST BIT and then proceeds to WIG THE FUCK OUT ON ME, as if I'M THE ONE THAT DID ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!! UGH I serioulsy think I'm either A. going to ask if I can get switched to days, or B.quit the fuck out of there. I mentally can no long TAKE THAT FUCKING FAT BITCHES ATTITUDE!!!! I'm so fucking tired of hearing about the J-man (Jesus) and her fucking GUSTO!!!!!!!!! I want to fucking beat her to death with her 15 pound bag of popcorn! WHICH SHE INSISTS IS GOOD FOR HER, YEA WELL NOT WHEN YOU EAT LIKE 2 POUNDS A FUCKING DAY!!!!! I'm still fucking enraged about her tonight, not even smoking is calmin me down. And to top shit off, she constantly picks on Lisett. I think we should just fucking ask to go to days, or threaten to quit. GOD I'm so pissed I decided to make a pie chart to even GIVE you the idea of how annoyed I still am! EN FUCKING JOY!

myspace

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 07:41:17 GMT

So apparently myspace is like on its last leg as we speak,
some server for fried or something.
HOw much you wanna be there are like kids in California,
crying to their mommy's about myspace being broken???
God, the amusement at the expense of others...

sooo today was weird

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 07:15:26 GMT

So is it just me, or is it fucking freaky as shit when two of your friends end up dating. And even fucking worse, BOTH lie to you about it, then SPRING it on you lke a suprise from FUCKING HELL!!!!!!! So that was pretty much how my day went today. Lisett and I were bombarded by mass amounts of PDA from a certain two people at work. I dont care when people are like, ya know, around me. but not when the girl is like a best friend and the guy is like a brother to me. THATS just fucking sick. GOD I dont thikn I'll ever be able to rant long enough, or loug enough how much this is weirding me out. Just the possibilty of walkin in on them like makin out in the warehouse is going to scare the shit out of me. I'm gonna have to like walk around with mirrors to peek around corners and shit. I like, just feel the urge to distance myself from both of them, cuz if shit hits the fan between then eventually, i dont want to have to pick sides. SOOOO if at the time being I have to not be good friends with either, so be it. Always looking towards the future....thats me.

sooo anywho

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 06:15:58 GMT

its been a long ass time,
i'm so fucking tired right now,
but i finally beat kingdom hearts 2,
and i got hte secret ending!!!!
...via the internet.
but it fuckin confussed the shit out of me.
wont say anymore about it just incase some people havent seen it yet.
Also saw POTC 2 yesterday,
damn was it a good movie,
I was on the edge of my seat the whole time,
probably because some kid was tapping my chair,
BUT STILL!!!
Yea I've gotta get some sleep

help

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 19:31:01 GMT

So i wanna dye my hair again,
cuz its lookin like shit at the moment.
But I dont know what I wanna do with it,
redo it the way I'ev had it,
black with blond highlights??
OR i kinnda wanna dye it like a burgandy/dark red *think Phoenix color*
I used to rock the red's before,
and I miss the way it looks in the sunlight.
I need some suggestions damn it!!!!!!!!!

nothing interesting really

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 06:14:55 GMT

So its like 1am and I just finished watching some show,
i think its called The 4400.
It seems pretty good,
I might check out the dvd seasons.
SO I totally went and saw X-men today with la familia,
for gratis seeing as i can still call on Newbob to get me in for free.
But yea,
that movie totally ROCKED my socks.
Can you even fanthom if I could do the shit like Phoenix?
dude, half the planet would be gone,
and I'm sure a lot of people too.
Good thing eh...
But my cousin things that because of the little teaser at the end of the credits,
there might be an Apocalypse or whatever its called in the next one,
where both sides join together against something.
He was telling me more,
but I deff was too busy daydreaming.
so yea, now I've got a list of movies to wait for,
HP 5, POTC 2, X-men 4, and probably a bunch more as I see the priviews.
So apparently no one I work with has EVER seen ANY of the Omen movies,
i dunno how I feel about the remake.
What are they gonna remake next,
Citizen Kane, Bonnie And Clyde???
Are the big movie guys serioulsy runnin out of ideas THAT badly??
But I deff will not complain no matter HOW MANY X-men movies they make.
Oh yea,
where the hell is my drawing?!?!?!?!

sooooo

Sun, 28 May 2006 18:40:21 GMT

I've had a very stressful 20 days straight working,
fuckin Toscano really must have it out to kill me.
BUT,
todays my day off,
and I'm totalyl relaxing.
Gonna go to a bbq at my aunts,
lay around on a swing thing over there,
and just calm my nerves.
Its funny tho,
everytime i hear a phone ring,
i get freakishly angry.
Not to mention,
i've answered my own home phone,
"thanks for calling design toscano."
That is just sad.

sick

Mon, 15 May 2006 07:54:08 GMT

I think i'm starting to develope some kind of ulcer,
all the stress at DT is FINALLY starting to get to me.
I can taste acid in my mouth,
and my stomach feels like its burning through itself.
I thikn I need soem kind of meds,
before i get like internal bleeding or whatever.
If I die,
that would suck.

edit*****happy angela!?!?!?!? <333333

birthday

Sat, 13 May 2006 04:07:04 GMT

So i totally found this digital camera I'm in love with,
but no one will buy it for me,
cuz its like $300.
when I spent more than that on my cousins,
moms,
brothers,
and aunts
bdays alone.
But oh well,
not like i expected anything from anyone,
its just one disappointment after another.
Tho,
i met a boy...

Seriously

Fri, 12 May 2006 04:50:39 GMT

Your so lame,
making me seem like the one thats wrong.
WHEN I WAS MOCKING WHAT YOU SAID TO ME!!!!
I dont need your little friends ganging up on me,
peace lata

yawm

Mon, 08 May 2006 08:21:13 GMT

So I just got home from a whole lotta family fun,
got dragged to see that Take The Lead movie,
with the Zorro guy!
suprisingly enough,
I actually enjoyed it.
I swear,
I'm getting stupider by the day,
I can barely type without typos.
How redundant,
I downloaded a pretty good song.
Its call,
I wish I had an angel, by Nightwash.
you shuold check them out,
serh gut.
Incase you wanted the lyrics,

I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel
Your Virgin Mary undone
I`m in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust
I wish I had your angel tonight

Deep into a dying day
I took a step outside an innocent heart
Prepare to hate me fall when I may
This night will hurt you like never before

Old loves they die hard
Old lies they die harder

I wish...

I`m going down so frail `n cruel
Drunken disguise changes all the rules

Old loves...

I Wish...

Greatest thrill
Not to kill
But to have the prize of the night
Hypocrite
Wannabe friend
13th disciple who betrayed me for nothing!

Last dance, first kiss
Your touch my bliss
Beauty always comes with dark thoughts

I wish...

Twisted Wonderland...

wow

school

hah

....

ho ho ho

hooookah

sick

been a while

IF...

*sigh*

so

WTF

ding din ding

sooo

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

myspace

sooo today was weird

sooo anywho

help

nothing interesting really

sooooo

sick

birthday

Seriously

yawm

sigh